All I can say about myself is most of the time I'm completely lost, I love listening to other people's beautiful poems but I can never write my own. I get extremely emotional I can't hide it. My suicidal thoughts have been horrible in the past two three years. I hate talking on the phone with strangers but my mom doesn't seem to understand that. My home life isn't bad, i just hate being home i wish i could be out of here now. The only time i get some peace is when I'm outside with my boyfriend or just near him in general. I'm starting to really get attached to him and it terrifies me. My love of art has been disappearing i just can't anymore. I have a past like we all do, I think of mine a lot. I cry way to many silent tears. I try to be okay on my bad days, just some days I can't smile.